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Wahlau..so dusty here..hahaha..I'm bored but dont hav mood for blogging..

Nth to write here..cuz really boring..no life..no story..Oni one word to describe my life SIENZ!

sigh...sigh..sigh...

Sigh~

Yesterday...Erm...Noon de story ady posted...Now I want to tell story happened at night...Aiz...Really suay lar...

My mum..dont know why...tiba-tiba holiday..I say that cuz she dint cook dinner..LOL..Then she went to eat dinner outside..With my dad and sis..but never buy for me..Maybe cuz I dint ask la..Anyhow lor..

Then 10pm I went to fetch my bro from tuition..As I sit into the car..Rain started to fall..!@# I thought it wont last long..Then also nice experience la..1st time I drive in rainy day ma..Hehe..Who knows...It continue to rain..Heavily..Until I cant even see the road clearly..Gosh,scary!Even my bro also ask me:"Jie,you can see the road ar?" =.= One more disadvantage is I cant speed up..Keke..Road slippery..Later I lost control..

When I reached Air Jernih there..A Wira..Dark blue..Stupid driver really...dont know boy or gal..Well, that time I was driving on my lane..but then that car suddenly like trying to drive to my lane..Or maybe he/she dint control the stereng well..That time the car can say to be at beside me..by the other lane..Then he/she trying to cut into my lane or what?No signal at all..Tiba-tiba..So so close..Luckily I break lor..If not..sure gesek tio..Want me heart attack ar?I really thought that car gesek-ed my car..HORIBBLE!!Fortunately not..phew..

Somemore that line in the middle of both lane..Is thicker than usual one..You guys drive there before than will know..cuz before that the road is two way run ma..got road divider..now become one way le..So the line is drew same wide as the road divider..Like that you also can drive into other lane?!Stupid!!!

Anyway..I was kind of happy?Cuz I finally meet some driver more stupid than mieeee...muahahahahaha..Am I trying to comfort myself?[swt]

At the beginning I planned to go eat roti canai as dinner with my bro de..Then it rain heavily so sudden..In the end I balik rumah cook maggie..zzzz..Half loaf of bread is better than none la..forget bout it...tonight eat more la..ganti back..wakakaka

Elo Elo...

Sigh..these few days I'm kind of tired...Maybe cuz I wake up in morning...[My normal time is noon]..Keke..

This morning..11am..Janiz phone me while I was sleeping...Then my sleepy voice made her realised that she had disturbed me..Haha..Or maybe not?Actually not disturb la..but then after the call I cant sleep le..So wake up lor..Just consider as a morning call?At 11am??OMG...Nvm la...I know she call me cuz she's bored..Waiting to take her IC alone wor..Anyway I'm also happy to chat with her..though my eyes cant really open..Since its just a call..I only have to open my mouth..Hehe..

Then we went out at noon?evening?3pm is what time?I dont know...ps..Haiz..In beginning she's the one who suggest for an outgoing..In the end I've became the organiser =.=''' Then driver..Haha..worth also since got somebody praise my driving skill *smirk*

One more thing...IMPORTANT one...My found out that people always type my name as "Xin Jing"...Its a big big BIG mistake!!!My name is "Xing Jing"!!!!Since small till now I graduated!!Sigh..If dont know ask la..If feel shy then juz write Iguana or lukluk o whatever la..sigh..Hate most people spelled my name wrongly..Bear on your mind yea guys~Hehe

Hmm..dont know why I dont feel like telling everything bout me right here anymore..So..signing off~

I'm Blur

Eh..what happened to me today ar?Everything I do and did..Really blur blur la..feeling dizzy now..

Guess I'm gonna fall sick soon..Maybe cuz today wake up too early dy..Need to go public library for dont know what de IQ test..Then this morning only I know that there's another interview to be attended...Sien ar!!!Well that scholarship is given A-level and medic..I cant find out which point I can or I could like both of that course..Worrying..Later interview they ask me why want to be a doctor...Should I tell them honestly?That I applied for these cuz being forced by my parents?This sounds a bit too...but I really cant think of anything nice to answer this question la..Last time I only not interested in medic..Now I started to hate it >.<

Haiz..cincai la..I'm not really worrying bout what woud be asked during that interview..If my answers sux then lagi bagus o..No need to go le..Muahehehe..One thing is..is people there so hardworking or never use their brain?My interview fall on 7/5[this coming Thursday]and the time is...5pm in the evening..zzzzzzz I thought gov workers 5pm off work then 4.30pm already on their way home?Anyway..That time is really sux la..

Ok..sad story ended..Now talk bout my outgoing last night..Yesterday I suddenly think bout Su Hwee..How come so long she dint call me and ask me to go "hui suo"?Then that noon..she on msn and ajak me go "hui suo"Hehe..cool..Round 6pm she phoned me and tell me she'll be arrived at my house in 10more minutes..Hoho..kind of excited since I never go out for a period dy..

After that we ate "bak kuh teh"Hehe..Rainy day..warm~Then we headed to "hui suo"..Those newbie..haiz[shake head lar]Anyway..I enjoy my time with Su Hwee and Yin Si there..Miss them so much..Haha..Then hor..Yin Si's head accidentally knocked to the edge of table.."ouch"This sound come out from me at the 1st place before she's willing to give out any respond..Seriously I can feel her pain..Its really sakit tau?Dont trust me?Go try bang one time..Haha..

10pm++ they finished practice..Then we went to eat "lok lok"Cool..KT de "lok lok"?like that lor..Taste not bad..Haha..Hey guys..Next time got chance we go together yea? T_T Jl..I wanted to go with you..Why you going study so fast???I'll misssssssssssssssssss you..PROMISED^^

Sad life...

Recently I've discover a new way to spend my super extra time in life..SLEEP!!Then Janiz also got tell me sleep do help in diet *smirk* One stone two bird..not bad..not bad..

So far..my record is to sleep from 6pm to 1pm the next day..then yesterday I sleep from 2am-3pm..[my dad wake me up de..if not duno what time will wake..keke]but hor..I found out few disadvantages bout this plan la...

1st:Yesterday I wake up 3pm and till 2am in the night..My eyes were still big and sparkling..Energytic..Thought can play game de..Sigh..dont want to mention bout that again..later my tears will flow down...In the end I force myself to sleep..I struggled on my bed since 11pm..OMG..This is killing me..I on the radio..Fly fm..one song dont know repeat how many times in few hours...Sienz..If I'm not wrong..I only get into sleep round 3.30am..Sigh

2nd:Everytime I wake up late..Others will finish all foods available..No matter breakfast or lunch..[no wonder la..people say sleep can diet..cuz you lost your chance to eat.. =.=''']Then my breakfast for this morning = 1 piece of pancake left... T.T I can say to be lucky this time cuz at least there's some food left...Last friday I woke round 7pm after having nap..The kitchen is empty..That time my parents were out for dinner..thought they'll ta bao for me..[still purposely call them to remind..was starving that time]..Manatau they come back and tell me that the noodless stall dint open..ask me go that malay stall near my house buy myself..Then I really bo song dy..They got food to eat how come dont have place to ta bao?After that I ate the chee choeng fun in my house which they bought since morning..Haiz..Then, my bro go ta bao also never buy for me!![sleep la sleep..now eat urself lor..padan muka..]

In a nutshell..I dont think my sleep plan is working as well...but if I dont sleep..I'll play the role as a house maid..Still remember vividly..Last time..Everyone was at home..Then my dad call me and asked:"Why you never fold the clothes ar?"Holy ****..So many people at house..Why all me me me???Buy food never buy for me..go shopping also never bring me..Now deleted away my game le still me??! WTF...Fine..Who ask me to be born as gal..If son also wont life that kind of torturing life...I know that cuz I got kor kor..but born as a gal not my fault also ma ..T_T

Forget bout it la..A boy flowing the same blood with me studying in Taylor..and yet they forced me to apply what what what IPTA?metrix?yayasan?I sent so so many applications till they also blur which one is which one..Still tell me what his result not good..cannot apply gov de..Then I also get sux result lor..can?Result good only makes you all happy for saving $$,proud to be my parents..but do they ever think bout my feelings?Yea..I may seems happy too..That's just an appearance k?Dont be too innocent la...Actually since the day they ask me to study hard for gov scholarship..I really feeling like to give up everything I got that time..Why I need to suffer so hard studying those days?I suffer from last time till today..Any point for a good result?In the end I'm still suffering >.<

Then..I even realised that..I get the worst treat in this family..When my bro and sis done all wrong things..I'll get the blame..Cuz of them..I cant play game anymore..then nevermind..Still need to be their teacher, driver, and even maid..sometimes still talk to me with rude way[I mean mostly]..no manners..I wonder how their parents teach them?Hehe..dont know..ask my mum and dad la..Even when I get bullied by them..its still my fault..Whenever I complaint to my mum..she'll tell me that I dont have the model as an elder...I never try to earn their respect and etc..So lastly its still my fault..Now..I'll never complaint anything to them..Otherwise I'll get the blame again..*sob sob* Bout my dad..he never give any respond to me..Wooden block!

Haih..This song is best to describe my mood now..

Sorry..Blame it on me.. [Akon]
As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done And things that have not occurred yet And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for I’m sorry for the times I left you home I was on the road and you were alone I’m sorry for the times that I had to go I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know That you were sitting home just wishing we Could go back to when it was just you and me I’m sorry for the times I would neglect I’m sorry for the times I disrespect I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done I’m sorry I’m not always there for my sons I’m sorry for the fact that Im not aware That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there Because I am in the streets like everyday Sorry for the things that I did not say Like how you are the best thing in my world And how Im so proud to call you my girl [Bridge] I understand that there are some problems And I am not too blind to know All the pain you kept inside you Even though you might not show If I cant apologize for being wrong Then it’s just a shame on me I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me [Chorus] You can put the blame on me [4x] Said you can put the blame on me [3x] You can put the blame on me Sorry for the things that he put you through And all the times you didn’t know what to do Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad And you would rather be home with all your kids As one big family with love and bliss And even though Pops treated us like kings He got a second wife and you didn’t agree He got up and left you there all alone I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief I’m sorry that your son was once a thief I’m sorry that I grew up way too fast I wish I would’ve listened and not be so bad I’m sorry your life turned out this way I’m sorry that the FEDS came and took me away [Bridge] I’m sorry that it took so long to see They were dead wrong trying to put it on me I’m sorry that it took so long to speak But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani I’m sorry for the hand that she was dealt For the embarrassment that she felt Just a little young girl trying to have fun Her daddy should never let her out that young I’m sorry for Club Zen getting shut down I hope they manage better next time around How was I to know she was underage In a 21 and older club they say Why doesn’t anybody wanna take blame Verizon backed out disgracing my name I’m just a singer trying to entertain Because I love my fans I’ll take that blame Even though the blame’s on you [3x] I’ll take that blame from you And you can put that blame on me [2x] You can put that blame on me And you can put that blame on me

Phew~

I'm so stupid huh...Recently feeling weird bout my posting..Why all date written is different from the actual one..Then I check my settings..OMG..My time zone is wrongly set =.= but I've fixed it and now everything is back to normal..Hohoho..[swt]

Hmm..You guys think I should repair my comp or not?I eagerly wanted to play game..but kind of waste of $$ yea?Haiz..also don't know which shop to send that 3-inched dust comp to..Now play game also need to sneak here and there..like planning to carry out any plan that's against the law =.=''

Actually I'm here right now planning to play game using dad's laptop..Manatau..He deleted my game *cry* Oweiiiiiii...[bAnG WaLL] "ouch!pain!!" Sigh..Now sneak also cannot play game..go sleep better..but...I can't sleep now..Just wake up from my nap round 5hours from now..Still energytic...Really don't know what to do now la..[shake head]

So...Shakespear[s] "To repair or not to repair?" My dear comp..Miss you..Love you..RIP..I'll build a memorial pole for you..If I don't want to revive you..Haha..Then you just rest in peace for tempo before anyone answer my question ya...*muax*

Suddenly feel like I'm mad of that comp..or maybe I wanted to play game too much le?Anyway..even if that comp get repaired..I still have to sneak to play..If not later on will get nagged by parents..Seems not much different..but at least..I can copy pictures from my phone to comp..Receive any file from friends through msn..Chat with my kor kor using skype~Then mum also can chat through web-cam with my aunt...
P/S:Wah...I only realised that the comp is so so useful in my life huh...

One disadvantage if I send that comp to repair..Later my bro and sis everyday play game play game..When my parents are angry..I'm the one who get blamed..Sure ask me delete that game away..!@# They play scold them la..Nothing to do with me ma..Moreover, they're the one who get my addicted to that game..I'm not Akon and please dont put the blame on me kay?[Akon have a song which titled as "Blame it on me"]

Otherwise...I should keep it as secret between my parents and I that the comp is revived?Means..I can't open that comp during time they're at home..Wow..This will be a tough mission..Then what for I repair it?Sneak every morning of weekdays?I'll rather sleep till they back from school and wake me up..At least my heart won't beat at a fast pace every morning..Later get heart attack ar =.=''' I prefer to live a peaceful life..Hehe

JLJL~~My super evil plan advisor..Jkjk..I mean..my super great, creative and imaginative supervisor..Any comment on my plan?Before you go study..Save me for the last time can? T.T Or..lolipop got plan?Or any useful advise to this stupid, brainless and dumb gal?JM?

Fast fast reply me har..

T______T

Haizzzzzzzzzz...my mood now...difficult to describe..Seriously I don't know what's happening to me..since April..but now May le still the same..(I think worsen)

My privacy..sob sob..Now house comp spoilt le then fine lor~I camp in office pulok =.= Thought I can enjoy my PEACE~ moment..Siapa tau..my siblings also follow me to office...I work here susah susah trying to complete those **** reports..They're sitting opposite of me..Watching crayon shin chan through youtube.T_T
1st: I also want to watch arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...
2nd:They open the volume loud loud..distrupted my mood to work..
3rd:Still on the air cond even its a rainy day..trying to murder me?
4th:They are irritating enough yet still sitting in front of me...
5th:I work so hard here you enjoying your life there?WTH...
6th:I hate kids cuz of their presence in this world..but what can I do?
7th:I feel like to stay away from them..sick already still want come near me..Shoo~!

Another thing is...I love to bring my dad's laptop to play game in my room during mid mid night...Then the next day always lazy to bring it down again..and my bro discover it..so..he likes to get into my room for gaming purpose..lie on my bed..hugging my dearest thing in this world[my pillow]LOL..Last but not least..he bring those flu and cough viruses into my room...ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...I dont want to fall sick >.<

So yesterday I found out he's in my room..playing game..then I get angry and chase him out from my room..After he gone..I was like "phew"...then few mins after that..I walked upstairs and saw another bro in my room..!!! =.=''' This time that laptop I already bring it down..but he lie on my bed reading story book T_T Hellllllllllllllllllllllllll..my pillow T.T my bed T.T *cry*

Then just now after back from the church...They repeat the same thing...Actually I want bring the laptop down but I'm kinda late since he's already in my room when I go upstairs..!@# After that I saw my younger bro go up..so i follow him quietly..He went to my room..sit on my pilloww!!!!!! That time I really behtahan already..So I shout to him with a rude way..but he also no respond de...swt..He get out of my room..then drop out few words to me "Fat la you" ceh~say lor..I never say I'm thin also..wait next time when he urgently want me to send him to anywhere..I baru man man count with him..will remember this ==*

Haiz...about 1 hour ago..my parents ask me to hang the washing..before that my sis wash her shoes and hang it outside..Don't know that she's skilless or what..All water dripped to the floor..Then when I'm hanging those clothes..I feel extremely uncomfortable stepping on those water..yucks..Then...then...and then I merajuk on the spot..(really swt lor..so big gal liao..dont care..my mood already bad in ori)Well..my mum was there and she looked at me with a weird way..I don't know how to describe it..Mayb she's like "OMG..mad?"Haha..In the end my sis go and wipe off the water..hehe*victory*

Sigh..That's why I said..I'm bored till can cry anytime...So PLEASE don't tease/bully me..later I cry then really susah la..

P/S: bout that water dripped on the floor..My tears almost come out dy...Shh..keep this as a secret yea..

*writing bout my shameful story here..feeling like to drop my own water face..anything la..you guys enjoy reading it then ok le..Haha..touching huh?So useless ar me..sikit-sikit mau nangis dah..sigh..